a week later

and i feel better.  the longer i go without talking to him, the better i feel.  although i want to know what he's doing and all taht stupid stuff, i've decided to not worry about how he's feeling or what he's doing because what i feel is more important.  i am remembering that i am more important, that i deserve better and am starting to change my way of thinking.
 
i'm inching towards my goal of not allowing myself to be abused for the sake of getting crumbs of love.  i deserve it all!  i'm trying to surround myself with better people and am thinking of a way to meet more friends.  i need to get out more, drink less and enjoy life.
 
i will make it.