a venting extravaganza
I got up this morning in a really black and foul mood, pretty depressed at the state of things, the condition of things in my life, to a lesser extent the things around me. It seems that the more I try to extend myself outward to people, the less interest is returned to me ,,,sometimes there is just hostility,,this has happened several times ,,,It seems that folks take so much personally that they cannot engage in a civil discourse anymore,,,this is seen on the political stage in all of its glory, but it also extends into social environments and this is what has got me very bugged ,,,
In many ways I am the object of my own scorn and in some respects I am a major offender. It however doesn't relieve the problem. I write to people on here and on other sites with little to show for it, the question is ,,am I just hitting the wrong people ??? I feel very ignored both in the real world and online ,,,and I do not deserve such returned behavior from anyone ,,,I do not deserve anyones scorn in the form of being denied my existance,,,more than once bases on conversation and discourse of thought and idea I have lost people to anger and conditional acceptance which to me is creating unreasonable rules and conditions for understanding,,I am not the enemy, my words are not weapons and I am sick to death of finding that I have to explain myself over and over again...I have run out of gas here ,,,that is all I've got right now,
In many ways I am the object of my own scorn and in some respects I am a major offender. It however doesn't relieve the problem. I write to people on here and on other sites with little to show for it, the question is ,,am I just hitting the wrong people ??? I feel very ignored both in the real world and online ,,,and I do not deserve such returned behavior from anyone ,,,I do not deserve anyones scorn in the form of being denied my existance,,,more than once bases on conversation and discourse of thought and idea I have lost people to anger and conditional acceptance which to me is creating unreasonable rules and conditions for understanding,,I am not the enemy, my words are not weapons and I am sick to death of finding that I have to explain myself over and over again...I have run out of gas here ,,,that is all I've got right now,
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I\'m sorry you\'re feeling this way. Sometimes it seems like everyone is ignoring us and that isn\'t always true. I know I may not comment often but I always read your journals and follow what you\'re doing. Swimming at the Y sounds like something relaxing, cooling and just overall enjoyable and I admit I am envious of that. No Y here. I read about your track lights and wish I could do something like that. I\'m curious, always, to find out how the groups are going and if you\'re getting some support and assistance there. And, truly, I am envious of your muffins. I am craving some blueberry ones and can\'t find any without baked on sugary strudel. Yuck. I want to reach into the picture and take one. :)
You are not forgotten. I may not always agree with what you write or the stand you take on political matters but that doesn\'t mean I\'m not your friend and that i don\'t like you or respect you or want the best for you. I think it\'s good for us to know people who have differing opinions and who have had different lives than us. It not only makes us more well rounded but it makes us more compassionate and caring and human.
Don\'t change. And hang on to the hope. You are not alone.
Hugs,
Lynn
thanks for your feedback and support ,,,It is nice to know there is still intellgent life out there in the universe ,,,,
I know how it feels to write someone or make comments and be totally ignored. It hurts very much. I am sorry you are being treated that here on thise site and in real life. Huggs
I understand your feeling this way. People are very, very sensitive right now. I think even more so because of the financial stuggling that is adding to the other issues people have. Everyone has a right to his/her feelings. Dosen\'t matter what others think, unless we personally attack one another, then that\'s a different matter. I don\'t think most people \"attack\" others for spite or because they just are mean people. Everyone has their \"triggers\" that are probably even more so sensitive because of the financial and political issues our country is facing. I believe we all are entitled to our views. Last time I checked, in USA we still had freedom of speech and expression. It hadn\'t at that time been shredded or anihialated from our constitution. My perception is that although one doesn\'t agree with someone else, best to agree to disagree, but still remain friends. I try to practice this. Sometimes, because of another\'s sensitivity or polarized thinking it is hard. Have found to let it go, part as friends and leave it at that.
Hope my rambling helped. I read your posts. You have a right to your opinions.
Hope you feel better soon.
Wow I wish I could write as eloquently as you! I lost my ability to write at a mature level years ago.