A Vague Premonition of Danger
Two weeks before my son Ryan past over to the other side, I was cutting his hair in my Hair Salon,which I have down in my cellar,after I was done cutting his hair he said "Thank You Mom" and I replied back "No Problem, I'll sweep the hair up so you can take a shower", Now I'm alone looking down at the floor as I was sweeping the hair up, this hugh Overwhelming feeling came across me, it was a perect clear vision of this painting of (The Last Supper). I said to myself "Wow where did that come from, and what is the reason for having a vision like that" ? It was a feeling that something was wrong, and I Did"nt know what, So I shook my head and tried to block it out of my head, as time went by I put it on the back burner. The following weekend I took my Mom, Ryan and my daughter Erica out to dinner at a Chinese food Restaurant, we had fun talking and laughing,but I still felt alittle Overwhelmed, I was happy that we went and spent time together. The following weekend on friday I was getting out of work, It was Good Friday,Easter weekend. I was thinking about taking my kids out to dinner again, but I went over to my boy friends house for a while, I just did'nt feel right, still feeling like something was wrong, I decided to go home and see what the kids were up to,when I got home , my Mom Said "you missed Ryan and Erica,they went off somewhere,but they did'nt say where" I was so disapointed that I missed them, I felt tired so I laid down on my bed. Like I said it was 'Good Friday" Easter weekend April 14,2006, The next morning on April 15,2006 Ryan had died from a accidental drug overdose. It was the worst day of my life ...That day my best friend Marie had called me to say how sorry she was for Ryan's death and if there was anything she can do to help. Nothing at that point could help,other than someone being there to talk to. So I told her about this Overwhelming feelings, and the vision of the painting ( The Last Supper ),Then I told her we went out to dinner the week end before Ryan died. She replied back "Kelly that was The Last Supper". Then I thought about it, Ryan died on Easter weekend just like Jesus did........Now I' tired, I'll share more later, I have to spend some time with my daughter, I'll write some more Intuitions and Premonitions later...Hope to here from all my friends!!!! XOXO KELLY
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I\'m reading this and thinking oh my God this is all so true... I think we know as mothers\' when something terrible, life altering is going to happen to our childrent... I remember talking to some friends about a month before my 2 kids were killed... Tracy first and Paul second... 2 different accidents.... and i remember telling the friend... Wow... things are just so great for us.... My daughter had just come back from a sailing trip... she sailed the Great Lakes on a very large sail-boat with some friends... anyways... that day... as I was telling the friend... Well Paul is on the football team and doing wonderfully... Tracy and Tammy are just beautiful and the 2 of them have made the cheerleading squad... they love their new school.... and as these words came out of my mouth... I thought oh no... things are too perfect... how can that be.... It sounded like I was talking about somebody elses\'s perfect family... and I got goosebumps and chills and thought too myself... Shut-up... shut up...I thought wow... I\'m too smug... too happy... oh my God... I hope nothing happens to ruin it... Little did I know that inside of a month... there would be one funeral and then 3 weeks later another... I guess that feeling was just taking me back and preparing me... There is one thing though that comforts me... and that is that never, ever, have my children ever left the house without they and I proclaiming out love... allways the last words out of our mouths were see ya later... LOVE YA.... and just knowing that those were my last words in a strange sort of way comforts me..God Bless
\"Danni\" had just returned from her senior trip to Cancun. She had met a boy there and \"thought she couldn\'t live without him in her life!\" She couldn\'t stop crying and I kept holding her and hugging her and asking her what was wrong! I even asked her if she was pregnant! She just kept crying and saying, \"Mama, I am scared and I don\'t know why!!! I just feel like something bad is going to happen!! She was miserable and decided to go see her dad and her old friends in La. She was there for three weeks. The day she left to come back home and pack for college she took a detour to say goodbye to some friends. The reason for the accident remains vague,but I will live with that torture forever!! Sometimes, actually very often, I feel responsible for her death. I dreamed about it for years! The same exact dream! Shouldn\'t I have done something? We were dancing in this glass ballroom and I was holding her in my arms! There were millions of stars shining thru the glass roof! She was crying, \"Mama, I don\'t want to die!\" I just kept telling her \"I know Danni, but the doctors say you will but no one will tell me why!\" I dreamed that for years. I would wake up crying and my husband actually asked me,\"Why do you dream stuff like that?\" \"I DIDN\'T DREAM IT BECAUSE IT WAS MY CHOICE!!!!\" I MISS HER SO MUCH!!!
Danni would be \"35\" now! I try to imagine that****
I just remembered someting I want to share! Danni was President of the journalism class her senior year. She proposed a contest that allowed everyone to suggest a name for their yearbook. Danni\'s suggestion was \"Imagine That!\" Danni never knew that her entry won and of course she never knew that the yearbook was devoted to her! \"IMAGINE THAT!\"
Just recently I was at my best friends beauty shop and she was cutting a young woman\'s hair. Somehow, my friend realized that this girl probably knew \"Danni\" and she mentioned it out loud! The girl was all excited and told me that she was a freshman when \"Danni\" was a senior. She was literally squealing as she talked about my \"Danni\"! She said all the freshmen girls adored her because she always treated them as equals and went out of her way to see them or help them, \"THAT WAS MY DANNI!\" Then she asked me if \"Danni\" still lived here or did she stay somewhere else after college? Was she married, did she have kids? On and On and my heart was beating out of my chest!!! My friend was looking at me like \"OMG, what have I done! What do we say?\" Then I had to tell the young girl that \"Danni\" had died \"7\" weeks after graduation. She started crying and then I was crying and my friend started crying!Strangers in the shop were crying and then I told them some great things about \"Danni\" and everyone began to calm down. Then I went in the kitchen and made champagne cocktails!!! We needed to \"lighten up!!!\" To those of you who read this, \"Thank You\" for allowing me to vent a little! Yes it has been a long time, but deep inside of me it was yesterday! The best gift anyone can give me is to mention her name!! She was \"Hope Danielle\"! She was \"Danni\"! She was my daughter and I will always love her!!! I feel guilt that the last time I saw her alive, she was hurting, but she couldn\'t or wouldn\'t tell me why! I will never know what was troubling her so badly the last time I saw her! I didn\'t know how to help her! I failed her in the end! Somehow I have lived with that for fifteen years! I wonder, will I ever forgive myself?
I just wanted to say \"Thank You\" to each and everyone of you that have responded to my story!! It does help so much to be able to talk about her! Why does it seem like people avoid mentioning your childs name after they die? I live for someone to mention her or tell me a story about her! THANK YOU!