A twist in events

It fill the tissue paper,in all red,right after intercourse.No spotting the next day and now today it filled the tissue,all red.
I 'm in tears....I want to have a life and be normal.I am just so tired of hoping and not have a successful pregnancy.
I am so filled with emotions right now,that I could scream at the top of my lungs and no one would barely notice me.
I am so tired and now I can't seem to think straight,all I'm thinking about, is if this pregnancy will end up in a miscarriage.Tomorrow ,if i start have cramps then I know, where this pregnancy, will be going.
I feel some how relieved that i 'm writing this journal entry. I shared how I felt and vented ,and to tell what's going with me.
I 'm going to make an attempt to sleep,knowing that my DS folks are with me throughtout ,this rough time.