A Setback

I completed my refresher training successfully but had a setback. I failed the physical agility test necessary to run a tanker for Schneider. At least Schneider is willing to send me to the regular dry van division which would be pulling a conventional 53ft trailer. It's some mixed news. At least I will be on a dedicated account for International Paper. I wish it was simply drop and hook but it's mostly live load and unload.

My nerves are frayed and I'm disappointed and scared. All my emotions are going off and I'm thinking about going back to security. I went ahead and applied for a position with Allied Universal as I have my armed security license. I think I'm just destined to be living on the fringes of life. There's really no point in dreaming anymore, no point in having any goals.