A relatively calm day today... Thank God
For once - in a long while, it feels like - today has been a relatively calm day. Of course this had to involve him staying in the bedroom to " supposedly " nap, while I'm left alone in the rest of the apartment / livingroom... kitchen... bathroom, etc., to do whatever I chose to do with my free time. I call it " free time " for a specific reason. That reason is because for a long while now it seems that any time he is awake, and alert - ( regardless of IF he's in a good mood, or not ) - he is the one, and only one, that decides what we will do with our time. If I dared to dispute his decision for our shared time, then of course I'm suddenly being unreasonable, and bitchy. This is true for anyone in general who ever has an opinion that differs from his own.
A good example of different opinions is the the fact that I know that the only true way to cope - and live with - the noisy neighbors whenever they decide to play their music loudly, or allow their animals to make a bunch of noise is to ignore them. I've explained this many times, but it never " sinks in ". If it has sunk in at all, he doesn't show much sign of it since the last couple of times one of our neighbors played their music kind of loudly, he banged his fist on the wall several times. I'm just VERY thankful that he didn't do what he did the last couple of times, and he didn't turn on LOUD music on my stereo right here in our apartment ! The last couple of times he did that he turned it on so LOUD that it made me feel like I was going to be SICK, and it HURT my ear drums - even though I sat still with my ears covered.
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