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edit A Vague Premonition of Danger Friday, December 19, 2008
This is one of my journals, I wrote for you moms who haven't it....
Two weeks before my son Ryan past over to the other side, I was cutting his hair in my Hair Salon,which I have down in my cellar,after I was done cutting his hair he said "Thank You Mom" and I replied back "No Problem, I'll sweep the hair up so you can take a shower", Now I'm alone looking down at the floor as I was sweeping the hair up, this hugh Overwhelming feeling came across me, it was a perect clear vision of this painting of (The Last Supper). I said to myself "Wow where did that come from, and what is the reason for having a vision like that" ? It was a feeling that something was wrong, and I Did"nt know what, So I shook my head and tried to block it out of my head, as time went by I put it on the back burner. The following weekend I took my Mom, Ryan and my daughter Erica out to dinner at a Chinese food Restaurant, we had fun talking and laughing,but I still felt alittle Overwhelmed, I was happy that we went and spent time together. The following weekend on friday I was getting out of work, It was Good Friday,Easter weekend. I was thinking about taking my kids out to dinner again, but I went over to my boy friends house for a while, I just did'nt feel right, still feeling like something was wrong, I decided to go home and see what the kids were up to,when I got home , my Mom Said "you missed Ryan and Erica,they went off somewhere,but they did'nt say where" I was so disapointed that I missed them, I felt tired so I laid down on my bed. Like I said it was 'Good Friday" Easter weekend April 14,2006, The next morning on April 15,2006 Ryan had died from a accidental drug overdose. It was the worst day of my life ...That day my best friend Marie had called me to say how sorry she was for Ryan's death and if there was anything she can do to help. Nothing at that point could help,other than someone being there to talk to. So I told her about this Overwhelming feelings, and the vision of the painting ( The Last Supper ),Then I told her we went out to dinner the week end before Ryan died. She replied back "Kelly that was The Last Supper". Then I thought about it, Ryan died on Easter weekend just like Jesus did........Now I' tired, I'll share more later, I have to spend some time with my daughter, I'll write some more Intuitions and Premonitions later...Hope to here from all my friends!!!! XOXO KELLY
This is one of my journals, I wrote for you moms who haven't it....
Two weeks before my son Ryan past over to the other side, I was cutting his hair in my Hair Salon,which I have down in my cellar,after I was done cutting his hair he said "Thank You Mom" and I replied back "No Problem, I'll sweep the hair up so you can take a shower", Now I'm alone looking down at the floor as I was sweeping the hair up, this hugh Overwhelming feeling came across me, it was a perect clear vision of this painting of (The Last Supper). I said to myself "Wow where did that come from, and what is the reason for having a vision like that" ? It was a feeling that something was wrong, and I Did"nt know what, So I shook my head and tried to block it out of my head, as time went by I put it on the back burner. The following weekend I took my Mom, Ryan and my daughter Erica out to dinner at a Chinese food Restaurant, we had fun talking and laughing,but I still felt alittle Overwhelmed, I was happy that we went and spent time together. The following weekend on friday I was getting out of work, It was Good Friday,Easter weekend. I was thinking about taking my kids out to dinner again, but I went over to my boy friends house for a while, I just did'nt feel right, still feeling like something was wrong, I decided to go home and see what the kids were up to,when I got home , my Mom Said "you missed Ryan and Erica,they went off somewhere,but they did'nt say where" I was so disapointed that I missed them, I felt tired so I laid down on my bed. Like I said it was 'Good Friday" Easter weekend April 14,2006, The next morning on April 15,2006 Ryan had died from a accidental drug overdose. It was the worst day of my life ...That day my best friend Marie had called me to say how sorry she was for Ryan's death and if there was anything she can do to help. Nothing at that point could help,other than someone being there to talk to. So I told her about this Overwhelming feelings, and the vision of the painting ( The Last Supper ),Then I told her we went out to dinner the week end before Ryan died. She replied back "Kelly that was The Last Supper". Then I thought about it, Ryan died on Easter weekend just like Jesus did........Now I' tired, I'll share more later, I have to spend some time with my daughter, I'll write some more Intuitions and Premonitions later...Hope to here from all my friends!!!! XOXO KELLY
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I am sooo glad you are getting the feel for journaling it makes such a difference to put words into the universe .
I was at work on Sept 28 2006 and I could not focus , I was restless and I had a feeling somehting was wrong. I never went home for lunch but on this day decided I wanted to go home and check on Richard and my worst thoughts came true. My son had died from an od of Coacain and Heroin. According to the police the needle was still in his leg...
Hugs, Inga
I don\'t journal near as often as I should. When I think I will write one, the mood passes. Maybe I will give the word pad a try. Hugs, Barbara
My granddaughter had a dream 2 nights before that Eddie had died from a heart attack. She told my son & Eddie said to his daughter, \"I am not going anywhere, but if I did pass away somehow you\'d get through it. God won\'t give you any more than you can handle.\" We recently got the news after 8 months of waiting that it was indeed a heart attack. Eddie was able to give Christina the advice she would need 2 days later on 9/4/09 when Eddie went to be with the Lord.
I too do not journal very much. I find it hard to write abut the pain, yet when I do its OK. I will try again. Hugs, Linda
Your journal reflects the absolute connection between a mother and her child.
I lost my Chris to drug addiction, he often asked me if I believed in destiny, as he felt that his was to die young. I would say, yes son I believe in destiny, but I also believe that choice guides ones destiny. Chris was found dead on Saturday, Jan. 31, 2009. He was high risk, and it wasn\'t the first time I feared for his life, but I had cancelled two events that night and stated that I feared for my sons life, and I wouldn\'t be very good company. My sons estranged girlfriend in Russia called my cell phone that Fri, nite, I hadn\'t talked to her in over a year. She asked me about Chris, I said, \" Lola he lives one day at a time, and he could be dead or alive, I haven\'t talked to him for 2 days\". That night, in a black sky, I saw a crescent moon with a bright star cradled inside. I didn\'t sleep most of that night, when I awoke I said outloud, Dear Jesus, I can\'t live like this anymore.....I called a friend to go check on my son, as I waited on the cell phone as my friend pounded on the motel door screaming my sons name, I knew.....I knew there would be no answer, I knew he was gone. That night, as I lay in bed, numb with grief, I asked Chris for a sign....not a minute later my parents burgler alarm started screaming, the door to the garage was standing open, there was no breeze, nothing, just my son saying I\'m okay momma. From there, it has been an adventure in signs of love, and devastating grief. I too believe, and it is amazing and it is stunning, and it is all too painful. hugs, Rebecca
Thanks for sharing. I had a similar thing happen. My son, Philip had come over for his dad to help him put a radio in his car. Neither he or his wife had one and when I got a new one, I gave him mine. He came into where I was working at my desk. My first thought was to blow him off. I heard this small voice, say \"give him your full attention\". So that is what I did. He had had a couple of things go right for him recently, so I took the time to celebrate with him. I gave him a big hug and kiss before he left. So glad I listened to the whispers of God!! Linda
It amaze\'s me how many of us moms had some sort of something, or feeling, we couldn\'t put my finger on what was wrong... and it happened, it just happened....