A PHONE CALL

FIGURED TODAY WAS GONNA BE THE SAME AS EVERYDAY..BUT I WAS WRONG,GOT A SURPRISE CALL FROM FRIENDS .IT WAS NICE TO KNOW THAT THEY WERE THINKING ABOUT ME...THREE OF THEM SITTIN AT THE LODGE,PASSING THE PHONE AROUND..TO THINK I FEEL SORRY FOR MYSELF  AND TWO OF THESE PEOPLE ARE CANCER SURVIVORS.I REALLY MISS BEING APART OF THE OUTSIDE WORLD...THE CLUB THAT CLOSED WHERE I USE TO WORK IS REOPENING AND THAT S BRINGING UP A LOT OF MIXED FEELINGS FOR ME...THE CLUB HAD LET EVERYONE GO BEFORE THEY ACUALLY CLOSED THE DOORS. I FELT VERY ANGRY AND BETRAYED.I WORKED THERE FOR ALMOST FIVE YEARS AND DEVOTED EVERY MINUTE OF EVERYDAY TO KEEPING THE PLACE GOING.I WAS VERY CLOSE TO EVERYONE AND IT WAS LIKE A BIG FAMILY...TORWARDS THE END THEY WENT WITH VOLUNTEERS TO WORK AND I NEVER GOT OVER IT..I SAID HOW WOULD THOSE PEOPLE FEEL IF I WENT TO THIER JOBS AND I SAID TO LET THEM GO I WILL WORK FOR FREE...THEY TOOK AWAY MY FAMILYS LIVELIHOOD,THAT WAS MY FULL TIME JOB AND I MADE GOOD MONEY....NOW THEY ARE REOPENING AND USEING THE SAME VOLUNTEERS...EVERYTIME I GO OUT IN PUBLIC I GET THE SAME QUESTIONS...HEY WHERE YOU WORKING???ARE YOU GOING BACK TO THE CLUB WHEN THEY REOPEN???IT DRIVES ME INSANE......I AM NOT EVEN APART OF THINGS THERE ANYMORE AND IT KILLS ME INSIDE AND I REALY DONT EVEN WANT TO HEAR ABOUT THE PLACE ANYMORE...APPARENTLY I WASNT AS CLOSE TO THE PEOPLE AND PLACE AS I THOUGHT ...WELL, I JUST HAD TO GET ALL OF THAT OUT OF MY SYSTEM.IT JUST HURTS SO VERY MUCH,ITS LIKE I LOST APART OF ME WHEN I LOST MY CONNECTION TO THE PLACE AND PEOPLE....BUT ALL IN ALL I AM VERY HAPPY FOR TODAYS PHONE CALL,..A LITTLE LONELY AND MISSING MY OLD LIFE BUT HAPPY JUST THE SAME....