a note I just sent to my therapist
we had a telemedicine meeting today:
thanks again for today S..
I feel a lot more stable, took a little nap, did an errand,
and now i am at home just having done the laundry
and dishes.
I'm getting up early first thing to do the granola delivery to Venice,
then I am going to the Treepeople at 9am,
then I'll come home clean up and go and get the car washed.
It's been a while! I am lucky no one has written with their finger
on my dusty car hehe.
I am getting more aware of how to not go too inward to
deal with the moment - ground myself in practicalities..
if I think of desire too much then the question mark never seems
answered and I might lose my way.
Finding commonality with others in practicalities
not just in common interests. That issue
has been a stumbling block for me. I've tried to
answer it in abstraction when it's just real nuts
and bolts stuff.
I'll do one more chore and then maybe go and support
folks on the site.
have a good weekend.
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Have fun with the treepeople tomorrow.
That’s such a nice correspondence you have! It’s good to break things down and think of the nuts and bolts that hold the bigger concepts together. I’m doing that in my job right now and I know it’s starting to affect overall moods due to pressure….. because I have to explain both the nuts and bolts and the large concepts to others.
You are a wonderful supporter and such a light to everyone here! I hope you can keep seeing your value and wisdom the way others see it. Then when you go out in the world outside this site, the bigger concept, you’ll know the nuts and bolts of everything in the bigger construction. Hugsies.
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This is something else I wrote to her just a short while ago. She’s really helping me understand the nature of Schizophrenias and the things we get caught up on and so this is what I wrote. I’m sharing this in hopes to help make a connection for anyone in similar shoes.:
I need to tell you this so you might have a perspective on it, but I thought tonight as a way to celebrate the weekend and do something special for myself that I would buy some alcohol. (Not the hard stuff) I decided against it since I have to get up early and will be driving and doing physical labor tomorrow early. So I just turned on the tv instead. I couldn’t think beyond that unrealized goal. Tv is no good either. I was just obsessing. But then thought to ground myself with the thought that others might have to have disappointing plans and have to remember themselves and their responsibilities. That thought brought me back.
I’ll get ready for bed. I’ll get coffee tomorrow am and then go on the road. Thanks
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Thanks so much Becky and Nikki!!!
I just made the last reply to my journal before seeing your
responses. I so appreciate them!!
Have a good night!!
Have a Wonderful Time with your Tree Friends tomorrow! Thank You for all you are doing to help clean up our Earth :)
thanks Mary Louise!!