a new day.
11:07. skipped breakfast to rest.
making lunch. cheater mac n' cheese w/bits of ham and broccoli florets
not long now. trying to be cool. not worry or fret.
mia keeps digging in two plants. when i'm in the living room more she does not do this. when i'm away that kitten will break ALL THE RULES.
i took a coloring book and propped it against one of the plants....for protection. need to get another coloring book out to protect the other one. please let me remember. all night intermittent sleeping is not enough. so tired.
no big mean headache last night, just a little bit of sinus pressure, this is an improvement.
diverticulitis pain back. stiff and thick and achy.
very little will to do much of anything. no drive. so far it's been a no tears day, taking that into account as well. gotta get that prednisone outta my body asap.
i spoke to two staff members of the new rheumatology practice thus far, they had no lilt in their tone. nothing to suggest warmth or care.......why were they like that? i went the extra mile and a half with the second lady, i complemented the fact that my friend said so many stellar things abou their practice. that almost sort of thawed her abrupt tell me what i want so i can get off the phone with you demeanor.
still thinking about the tightness of their attitudes. does it cost so much more to be friendly? to be kind?
i know i am hypersensitive just now. i feel it in my bones and want this to lighten up soon. to unwind, to relax, to see the light and the best and the good in others. i remember knowing it's there.........and that means it can come into being again.
i don't want to go from one disorganized fractured rheumatology practice into. one that is uptight/constipated.......
call their office manager and ask a few questions about their practice or go online and read every review i can find........first i need to read reviews and then make that next decision.
time to eat.......well as soon as i mix things up. hugs, love, thanks!!!!!!! lots of thanks!
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Yeah, doctors offices can be cold places. It's crazy. I'm sorry about the diverticulitis. That's horrible. Hold tight, girl. Love you.
I find the less warm health care folks to be a bit better in the execution of their duties. I was getting eye surgery years ago and had called the 3 referrals they sent me, but decided to go to my next appointment early and see if I could stop somebody who had already gone through the procedure.
A nice woman approached the parking lot, so I asked her. She said she'd been very happy. I told her that I got the feeling that the doctor was not warm at all. We agreed in the end that we'd rather have a nice detail-oriented, obsessive -compulsive eye surgeon and get my hugs from my husband. Look to the results, although I totally understand you're feeling about this lack of empathy.
Impersonalism is on the increase in so many areas. Technology is to blame. I was listening to a program recently where they were discussing how the younger generation are losing the ability to communicate with eye contact and are unable to read body language etc. There is a very obvious lack of personal nurturing here in our local hospital too. I hate it. The staff are all glued to their computers and anyone could walk out unnoticed. I don't like it Ruthie. A little bit of friendliness and compassion goes a long way. It doesn't have to be so time consuming either. I can be brief yet still powerful. A few words..looking forward to meeting you. Or lovely chatting with you. Wonderful..see you soon..have a great day. Whatever.
We have a coffee shop in toen called Cruze Coffee. The owner makes a special effort to complicate everyone who walks through his doors. He calls me and numerous other older girls. .. Beautiful ! Or compliments a guy's shirt or whatever. Admittedly it's a good business move and the place is powering, but everyone arrives and leaves feeling better, simply because of the good vibes.
Love to you Ruthie.xo
Sorry..bad sleep and brain fog. Meant coffee shop in town. Also meant compliment not complicate lol! Oh dear.