A new chapter:

I am on the verge of starting a new chapter in my life.  I have a birthday in less than a month.  I am going into a new decade.  I am turning 50.  You only get to turn half a century once.
I spent money on my grown kids so I used my savings.  The really bad part about it is I have discovered my son to be very ungrateful and judgmental.  I am really upset about it.  As part of my healing process I am learning to confront bad behavior.  I wrote him a letter telling him how I felt.  
I am having to choose between doing some things for myself and trying to put together a party.  It looks like I will be trying to do some things for myself.   The things that I am doing are putting my life in the order that I have been wanting it to go.  I still may do a small get together.  I have to bring it in some.  I am trying to focus more on a social life anyway.  That is because I am trying to work on building relationships.  
There are some anti aging treatments that I have been wanting for quite some time.  I plan to do it for my birthday.  I had some visions of what I wanted my house to look like. I am trying to put those things in order.  I have been working on my fitness so that I can reach those long distance running goals.