A Man want to be free from my demons.

I am man who have a major angry issue. I think everybody is out to get me. I recently just understood that its in my head. It tough to put the blame on myself. I so use to blaming the world. I have adhd with all the bad stuff. I have a very patience wife who put up with me. But I know it is very stressful for her because of my disorder.  I just tired of being angry just  for the sake of being angry. Sometimes I just want to ben angry. It's like I have PMS! I know my anger isn't healthy. I know life is not going to stop because of me.  When I'm in the mood of anger is like a tiger trap in the wall, I just want to attack everything. But I know people aren't out ot get me but I still feel helpless with my anger. When I'm in that mood, nothing will stop me. I have read the books about anger but still it's tough. It good to say" I will calm myself before this arise" but in the heat of the moment is tough.  I want to be a healthy person  with a healthy mind.