A lot going on....

I have so many issues going on, I think it would help to write them all out. I start nursing school in the fall and I am so nervous that I am going to fail. My husband is an RN and he can help me but I am terrified of messing up in school again. I have been to many schools and just not been able to apply myself. I know I am intelligent but I can't seem to use it. I have not been in school in years so I am hoping that I am more mature now and ready to really do it. My DH is also going back to school in the fall to get his BSN. Then, I am home all summer babysitting kids in my home so I can be home with my stepkiddos. This is going fairly well with some resistance from his ex-wife. This is stressful for me because even though I AM working, my DH makes me feel guilty if the laundry isn't completely caught up or dinner isn't made everyday. He is working 60+ hours a week night shift. This is a huge strain on our relationship seeing as we were just married in April and hardly ever see each other. He sleeps all day and works all night. We are getting a vas reversal Oct 10 and it is very expensive! To add to all this, I am donating eggs in September for my sister-in-law who has struggled with infertility for 6 years. Now, obviously all these issues are not bad things, but they are stressful just the same. I am petrified about all these fertility issues in the fall. I am not afraid of the drugs, procedure, or anything like that. I just want this to work so bad. I have no idea if I even have "good" eggs to give or use! I want a baby, I want my SIL to have a baby. This would be very cool to be pregnant so close together because our husbands are identical twins. I know I need to take all this one day at a time and it will eventually get better--there is just so much uncertainty....I am turning to prayer!!!