A Little Bit More Stress
More stress, just when I don't need it!
First off, my computer freezes often, so when I am posting something I often copy it so that if my computer glitches and doesn't post it I don't have to retype it, just paste it. While doing something on the computer, Joey tried to copy and paste something. He messed up the copy, and what he pasted was my post. I was sitting beside him and I jumped and quickly deleted it. He got offended that I would reach over when he was on the computer and delete something, and maybe I over reacted, but daily strength is my sanctuary. I go here to be away from my life! And the post was nothing bad, it wasn't about him or his family or any of the other stressors I deal with. But now he's suspicious of this site. And he told me that if it was nothing bad I would show him my profile. But, like I said, I vent about him and his family on here, and I don't want him to see it! So now I'm upset about that, and he's upset about the fact that I told him no, this was for me and I didn't want him to enter into it. I get why he is upset, I do, but I need him to get why I said no.
Then, my sister is causing me more grief. I have been watching my nephew, she agreed to pay me. Well, in three months she has paid me 200 bucks. Her man got a job that has been paying him a fair amount, and they spend about 1000 on new dogs. Plus, he bought a new iPhone 4. They paid off their bills, like rent and phone bills and cable and what not. And they gave me nothing. So I called her on it, and she got defensive and told me they would pay me more this month. Then she said that if we would just stop being stubborn and Joey would go work the job her bf is, then we wouldn't be having problems.
Her bf works on a job that is 15 days out of town, 6 days in, sometimes more days out and less days in. It works for them, fine. But Joey and I sat down and decided that we would sacrifice the money he could make working out of town so that he could be home every night. It was our decision, and it bother's me that everyone thinks it was a stupid one. I used to babysit a little girl who's dad worked out of town. One day he came to pick her up, and she didn't know who he was! She sobbed and clung to me, scared of this stranger! We don't want that, and it won't necessarily happen, but it's still not a risk we want to take.
I've emailed, dropped off and faxed almost 30 resumes out but no one has even so much as called me for an interveiw! That's bumming me out. I do need specific hours, but 5pm until close at any business doesn't seem that bad. I mean, I could work at a store that's open until 2am fine and dandy. Or I could do part time. But if I have to work a day job and we have to pay daycare then I would be making next to nothing. So that's stressing me out too!
I just want life to be easier! Ugh.
First off, my computer freezes often, so when I am posting something I often copy it so that if my computer glitches and doesn't post it I don't have to retype it, just paste it. While doing something on the computer, Joey tried to copy and paste something. He messed up the copy, and what he pasted was my post. I was sitting beside him and I jumped and quickly deleted it. He got offended that I would reach over when he was on the computer and delete something, and maybe I over reacted, but daily strength is my sanctuary. I go here to be away from my life! And the post was nothing bad, it wasn't about him or his family or any of the other stressors I deal with. But now he's suspicious of this site. And he told me that if it was nothing bad I would show him my profile. But, like I said, I vent about him and his family on here, and I don't want him to see it! So now I'm upset about that, and he's upset about the fact that I told him no, this was for me and I didn't want him to enter into it. I get why he is upset, I do, but I need him to get why I said no.
Then, my sister is causing me more grief. I have been watching my nephew, she agreed to pay me. Well, in three months she has paid me 200 bucks. Her man got a job that has been paying him a fair amount, and they spend about 1000 on new dogs. Plus, he bought a new iPhone 4. They paid off their bills, like rent and phone bills and cable and what not. And they gave me nothing. So I called her on it, and she got defensive and told me they would pay me more this month. Then she said that if we would just stop being stubborn and Joey would go work the job her bf is, then we wouldn't be having problems.
Her bf works on a job that is 15 days out of town, 6 days in, sometimes more days out and less days in. It works for them, fine. But Joey and I sat down and decided that we would sacrifice the money he could make working out of town so that he could be home every night. It was our decision, and it bother's me that everyone thinks it was a stupid one. I used to babysit a little girl who's dad worked out of town. One day he came to pick her up, and she didn't know who he was! She sobbed and clung to me, scared of this stranger! We don't want that, and it won't necessarily happen, but it's still not a risk we want to take.
I've emailed, dropped off and faxed almost 30 resumes out but no one has even so much as called me for an interveiw! That's bumming me out. I do need specific hours, but 5pm until close at any business doesn't seem that bad. I mean, I could work at a store that's open until 2am fine and dandy. Or I could do part time. But if I have to work a day job and we have to pay daycare then I would be making next to nothing. So that's stressing me out too!
I just want life to be easier! Ugh.
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I tell my hubby that Ds is about women issues....and he\'s not curious at all:)
As for the job..I totally understand but what about him taking the job till he finds a local job. I would hate to struggle knowing there is a job I could take right now. If it\'s short term it wouldn\'t be so bad and just a stepping stone into the \"easier life\"
As for ds, I tell my dh about the women I meet, I tell him about the questions I ask, what peoples response was, he has not even attempted to look at my profile and Im glad b/c I vent about his family ALL the time here!
As for your sister, I totally understand about having sister issues, mine is very outspoken and rude at times, and everyone just takes it for the sake of my niece. My sis makes dumb decisions about boyfriends, and bringing them around my niece but no one says anything, then when I get fed up about her dumping my niece off at places so she can party every weekend I am the bad guy...you and your husband are making decisions for you and your family, it doesnt matter what everyone else thinks b/c in the end it is up to you and your husband to make your family work!
My dh was offered a job where he would be gone most of the time but it would be a federal job, with federal benifits and it is something he truly loves doing, but he turned it down b/c he could be gone a month home for 2 weeks and gone another month, that is a decision we made together and I could care less what anyone has to say about our decisions!
When dh and I were going thru real hard times I would have to force myself to find things I am thankful for and that seemed to get me thru the day, take one day at a time!
Thanks guys. My SO is looking into a job with his uncle for the lay off. It\'s really just family helping family. His uncle pays him to come over and then makes up silly jobs. One day he had him move a stack of lumber ten feet to the left. The next day he moved the lumber ten feet back to the right! It\'s just so that he is actually doing something. Plus, there is unemployment but that won\'t make our bills at all!
My sister has bad choices in men too! This one has been around for a year now though. And she used to try and dump her son on me so she could go party all the time. She has recentley grown up in some aspects, just not the others.
No one seems to understand why we chose to keep Joey at a job that paid less but that was close by. Joey\'s dad is a rigger, and thought it was okay. He said sure he regrets missing things, but they have extreme financial security now. But where my fiancee works works for us. When our daughter was born he took a week off, and they paid him for it! They didn\'t have too, they didn\'t tell him they were going too, they just did. And every summer then have company picnics for employees family\'s. At christmas they rent out the local bowling alley and play place and the kids get a gift from Santa, and fed, and get to bowl and play for three hours. The put on golf tournements for the employees. And they have suprise BBQ\'s for appreciation where they extend the lunch break to an hour and feed everyone.
It\'s a good place! And we are happy with it. My fiancee makes just under $20 an hour. Not the greatest, but if I could just find a damn job it would make the bills! We have a mortgage that\'s just under $1000 a month, a care payment that\'s $350 a month. Utilities to heat this stupid big house is about $250 a month in the winter. Plus groceries, medications, gas, property taxes, house and car insurance, credit cars, phone bills. Ugh. I hate bills lol.
I know life will get better, and I spend alot of time lately smiling like a dope at my daughter. Because she is what I\'m most thankful for in the world. And I do alot of cleaning, trying to make our falling apart furniture look better and whatnot. But it\'s when I lay down to go to sleep that I start to stress out.