a horrible life
I've led a horrible life and deserve all the wretchedness that comes my way.
I wish it wasn't so, I wish I could take back so many things I've done.
I have so many regrets and they haunt me every waking moment.
Which is why I love sleeping and try to do a lot of it. Blank out reality.
I wish it wasn't so, I wish I could take back so many things I've done.
I have so many regrets and they haunt me every waking moment.
Which is why I love sleeping and try to do a lot of it. Blank out reality.
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I sleep lot too nOt sure y but its not costing me $$$
I wish I could do the same; just sleep my life away...
What a crock of shit heretic you are a lovely lady who has been treated very badly by horrible people. You deserve no wretchedness, you deserve love and happiness and compassion. Sorry for disagreeing with you but that\'s what I think. Hugs
Don\'t worry about your past - you don\'t live there anymore ((((BIG HUG))))
In the short time that I\'ve known you, from what little I know of you(practically nothing) I cannot believe that, Heretic. Depression has a way of making things appear worse than they actually are. Whatever mistakes you\'ve made in your past you must realise that you are a human being, you are not the only one thats made mistakes, all of us here have made mistakes, some with dire consequences, not only to ourselves but to others. Dwelling on these things isn\'t going to right any wrong, you must move past it somehow & reap strength from your errors, whatever they were. You are human & I say you deserve happiness, love, & companionship. I wish you the best. *Hugs*
I do the sleeping thing, too. I am trying to get out of that habit..it is an escape from depression.
We all have regrets and we all have done some bad things in our life. I have made more bad decisions than I can count. However, I would say most of the time we are doing the best we can in a bad situation.
what have you done that is so bad? you don\'t have to answer. i\'m sure that you haven\'t purposely hurt anyone or any animals, tortured living creatures. now i know what it\'s like to want to sleep, or drink or take pills to numb out the pain of one\'s past. i\'m not sure what to say bcz i\'m not the happiest camper lately, but, i know that you don\'t deserve how you feel. you are an honest woman and a caring friend. the past does haunt us agreed. is there any way you can push those thoughts out heretic? with me, my children often remind me that i don\'t have a \"real\" job, or i\'m broke or i left their father for a loser, etc. etc...i can\'t turn them off. but if it\'s my own brain, i try very hard to not let the pain get to me, sometimes i cry it out. it hard living in this life. i know how you feel and your\'e not alone. life is a cruel joke. i wish for you, just a short escape from your pain. big hug. sorry if this is lengthy.