a great tolken of wisdom from my doc
I was boiling over with energy and anger today
thinking about so many things...past...present...and future..
I had a meeting with my therapist this evening...gratefully
we talked and I couldn't really make sense of my reality -
I was mostly strong bristling energy and she offered her interpretation.
she said "Some days we can be going onlong in our own momentum and activity
and we can suddenly be faced with the reality of 'oh i never got a certain something in life
that we have always wanted'." Like a partner or kids or a whatever we wanted...just
the issue that we haven't gotten those things yet (leaving the door open) but the jewel
is that she kind of tied my growlings together today to put me in touch with a reality
that I was experiencing - that is not uncommon or outside the realm of folks' experience.
I really felt it today - I didn't have the ability to articulate it - but she kind of crossed the t's
and dotted the i's for me.
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in my emotional rivers analogy, the currents don't need explanation. currents such as envy, jealousy, anger, love, joy, etc., etc., are just there and in continual motion. which reminds me of the lighter i am currently using for my smoke breaks. it has a picture of a toilet on it and the words, "go with the flow."
allow yourself the full human experience, father grasshopper. coveting is within our very nature. in the busy tizzies of my own full domestic life, i feel downright natural coveting your bachelor monastic life. the emotional river flows eternal, whatever the path life leads me down.
Thanks Arfie!!