A good thing...

Well, here it is Saturday already; a while back when I was in a pampering mood, I signed up for the VIP massage program at a local spa where you get one massage a month for a very good price... anyway you have to commit to 12 months... So... I did leave and go do that today, just for an hour... I came back a new person.  The massage person said my muscles were tighter than usual - no kidding!!  Anyway, it was good and was actually what I needed. I'm trying very hard not to allow stress to drive me to gambling... I wish I could say I'm 100% sure it won't... I will just take one step at a time... it is amazing how close we come to wavering, even if we know how horrible it is. It is something that is always with you - no matter how much time goes by.  Now I know that the urges do subside and have experienced that first hand, but the thought processes are not that easy to break.  Just venting... what I'm going through is just "reality" of stopping gambling - becoming aware of my thoughts, feelings, emotions, etc. that lead to the wrong actions. Thanks for reading all this stuff - I'm moving on now to my house projects.   The support on here is great - - so helpful.  Just writing the words on paper - - -all better now - - - for the moment. :] Hugs to all, Smokeygirl