A Friend

How depressed do you need to be to commit suicide? I was reading my abnormal psychology book today where the required reading brought me to the subject of suicide. I don't know how to deal with it. I want to commit suicide when I hear about these things. I want to go away and end things as they are. I don't know why and I feel that I am in a rational mind and sound body, but I have this desire to kill myself. I would of corse leave a note and make my body suitable for science, but I don't know what I would say and when I would kill myself. I know that it would be by pills and in my sleep, I don't know what I am talking about. I love my life and I have to keep going so I may know how to help those in need, as I am right now. 
 
I met a boy, Don. Who I almost had sex with but I have still saved myself. It has been a long time and I have still saved myself for that one someone that will take my breath away. I thought someone was hitting one me this afternoon but I didn't go with it as I felt he did. He was cute too, had good arms. He was Asian. I am afraid of men and how to get them. I wish that I had the guts to actually keep flirting and approach a man so that we could move forward, maybe I would have liked that guy who stopped at my table this morning. I guess I'll never know. Maybe if I met a god partner I would have more fun have a continued desire to live. 
 
Goodnight moon.