A Fool's Concert

Last night I went to an atmosphere concert with Jacqui and Katie and I got way to drunk and way too high and I made a fools of myself and got lost twice and because of me we had to leave early so that I could get home. Even when I was walking back to my seat one of the ushers told me, or Katie, that I needed to leave because I was way too drunk. I have to admit that I was a liability. If I was at Coor's Field they would have kicked me out for sure. The bummer is that I think that we only got through a couple of songs and then I needed to go. I didn't ask to go I know that I was way out of it and I am glad that I had friends that took care of me. 
 
Now I feel embarrassed about the situation. I am spending money way too fast and I need to slow that down and find a job! I am going to try to stop drinking and smoking, because it is screwing up my cognitive functions and motor skills. I need to be solid going back into school and especially with the change in my major... to psychology. 
 
I don't feel well anymore, it's mostly anxiety and some depression. I don't know how to pin point it so it is difficult for me to fix or change. It's also simply frustrating. Yesterday afternoon my step brother called me and asked what dad did when Luke and I lied to him as kids. I didn't know how to respond and dad didn't answer his phone yesterday or today so I couldn't ask him what's going on, so I called Luke and Luke thinks that Ti may have just gotten in some trouble with dad, which sounds like it would make sense. I'm so tired and I just need to lie down and watch a show... omg school starts on Monday!!!