a feather in my cap

I've come to a place where I am making sense of my emotional life

and staying effective - I guess it must seem like I've been doing it all

along or at least sometimes - but I guess I just want to talk about,

however simple it must seem, that I went to work this morning

and felt weak and sickly - but when I looked in the glass of the door

I looked alright...I just determined to keep on keeping on - and be 

the best person I could be - I felt a sense of pride that I was managing

my emotions - and that's something. I'm able to process the good and the

crap as it comes my way - and it's like holding a goldfish bowl of water inside

as I go along - or even a football - keeping hold and yet not losing grip

and not getting too sloshed about - staying on target. So this feels like a feather in my cap.

I'm proud of it! I am proud of myself!

I may feel weak and sickly in my day - but if I keep hold of doing the job that I have at hand - 

as well as I can - I know I'll feel good at the end of the day...

I turned on the news after I got home this afternoon - and though I love to be informed

a lot of this news stuff can make me feel depressed - reportage sometimes is like droning

and so I'm owning that too.

Ok too much writing - my aim was just to say that I feel well - even though at times

I don't feel well. :)

make sense??

Have a good weekend!! TGIF!!