A day you would have loved
Jeff,
You would love the weather today. We have about 9 inches of snow and its still coming down. I HATE IT!!!! But you would have sat in the sunroom all day and watched the birds trying to find the seed you would spread for them. I would have painted at my easel while you asked, "Now, why did you do that like that?". Just to get under my skin! :)
The kids were let out of school at 12:30 and they have already called it off for tomorrow. So, at least I won't be home by myself tomorrow. Even though I have alot of work to do, I hate the silence of the house when its just me and the dogs. I know tomorrow the house will be full of the sounds that set you on edge.....drums and electric guitars! That use to be one of the things that made me smile...knowing that you really liked to hear the boys play, but you were gonna give them a hard time about it. And just so you know, they knew it too!
Today Chad put a post on Facebook that Izzy came running into him when the snow started and said," Daddy, Pappy and God are making snow cones. Come look!". I know she misses you , Pappy. And I know that Jamie and Chad will not let her forget you. I am not sure that I am going to be able to spend much time with the grandkids, but if they do let me, I will make sure you are brought up in conversations and I will show her pictures of you and her fishing. And just so you know, I miss her Pappy too!
I do have to say that I am ready for spring. I hope that the sunshine and warm weather can help to heal my heart. I know its only been less than 2 months, but I miss you so much and I don't like the lonliness that comes with you being gone from me. I know that some people tell me that its sad that you had to be taken from us, and didn't I wish you were still here? At first I said, ABSOLUTELY!! But the more I think about it and the way you felt, all run down with no energy and sick.... I have changed my answer. NO - I would not want you to still be here in the body you had, sick and run down, unable to participate in life. I would not be that selfish. But if you could have gotten better and felt more alive , then YES, YES, YES!! Now I just have to wait until its my turn to join you. I will promise to love you forever, to live our dreams and make things happen like we planned. I will continue to talk to you like you are here with me, cry and curse at you when I'm frustrated, and ask you to guide me when I need you. And I will ask GOD to look over you until HE calls me back to your side.
Love you baby.
Liz
You would love the weather today. We have about 9 inches of snow and its still coming down. I HATE IT!!!! But you would have sat in the sunroom all day and watched the birds trying to find the seed you would spread for them. I would have painted at my easel while you asked, "Now, why did you do that like that?". Just to get under my skin! :)
The kids were let out of school at 12:30 and they have already called it off for tomorrow. So, at least I won't be home by myself tomorrow. Even though I have alot of work to do, I hate the silence of the house when its just me and the dogs. I know tomorrow the house will be full of the sounds that set you on edge.....drums and electric guitars! That use to be one of the things that made me smile...knowing that you really liked to hear the boys play, but you were gonna give them a hard time about it. And just so you know, they knew it too!
Today Chad put a post on Facebook that Izzy came running into him when the snow started and said," Daddy, Pappy and God are making snow cones. Come look!". I know she misses you , Pappy. And I know that Jamie and Chad will not let her forget you. I am not sure that I am going to be able to spend much time with the grandkids, but if they do let me, I will make sure you are brought up in conversations and I will show her pictures of you and her fishing. And just so you know, I miss her Pappy too!
I do have to say that I am ready for spring. I hope that the sunshine and warm weather can help to heal my heart. I know its only been less than 2 months, but I miss you so much and I don't like the lonliness that comes with you being gone from me. I know that some people tell me that its sad that you had to be taken from us, and didn't I wish you were still here? At first I said, ABSOLUTELY!! But the more I think about it and the way you felt, all run down with no energy and sick.... I have changed my answer. NO - I would not want you to still be here in the body you had, sick and run down, unable to participate in life. I would not be that selfish. But if you could have gotten better and felt more alive , then YES, YES, YES!! Now I just have to wait until its my turn to join you. I will promise to love you forever, to live our dreams and make things happen like we planned. I will continue to talk to you like you are here with me, cry and curse at you when I'm frustrated, and ask you to guide me when I need you. And I will ask GOD to look over you until HE calls me back to your side.
Love you baby.
Liz
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