A Day Late
Day 5 of 365 - Man Break
I'm a day late with this one because last night was hectic! So I'm writing about yesterday today.
I felt a bit panicky last night looking at the long stretch of road ahead of me. I was feeling a bit like I wasn't sure if I could do this.
I did realize that if I don't have my focus on a man - either one I'm going out with or one I'm fantasizing about meeting I'm not sure what to do. Men are my excitement. My thing to look forward to. Knowing that is not my focus right now is throwing me off and making me feel a bit bereft.
I told my friend last night my plan and that if she could not go one about guys or setting me up that would be great. I'm really committed to this - just a little scared.
I also start counseling in two weeks which is good.
I just feel really adrift right now and really down not sure what to look forward to.
I'm a day late with this one because last night was hectic! So I'm writing about yesterday today.
I felt a bit panicky last night looking at the long stretch of road ahead of me. I was feeling a bit like I wasn't sure if I could do this.
I did realize that if I don't have my focus on a man - either one I'm going out with or one I'm fantasizing about meeting I'm not sure what to do. Men are my excitement. My thing to look forward to. Knowing that is not my focus right now is throwing me off and making me feel a bit bereft.
I told my friend last night my plan and that if she could not go one about guys or setting me up that would be great. I'm really committed to this - just a little scared.
I also start counseling in two weeks which is good.
I just feel really adrift right now and really down not sure what to look forward to.
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