a choice i chose to take-poem

a choice i chose to take
july 9 2012
 
im aching
breaking
torn
and hurt
 
im dying
crying
need
support
 
its all my fault
i chose to go
a choice
i chose to make
 
but what was i
supposed to do?
please god,
please dont hate
 
for what ive done
is not so good
its mean
and not me
 
but one must follow
through with life
following what
she believes
 
im sorry for all those
whom hurt
for i wish it
didnt have to
 
but want everyone
to remember
that indeed
i hurt too
 
for this life
ive just changed
and change is scary
for me
 
but i know
that right now,
things are tough
but all will be okay
 
because i have strength
that i dont see
and love
thats all around me
 
thanks to a friend
i may survive
this life i chose
to take
 
thanks to my sister
i shall survive
in this world,
that i know is a mistake.