A bundle of mixed emotions

I'm excited about seeing Kevin again before he goes on his trip. Now I hope he doesn't try anything fast like kiss me or anything. That long hug last night was intense...
And on Facebook I noticed someone I've had a crush on is now in a relationship. It kind of upsets me because I wonder if he know about my feelings for him. Giving him all the advice and being there for him while it was emotionally dehabilitating...I'm sort of crushed yet at the same time I'm happy about my friendship with Kevin.