There’s a man here who visits with the workers at my store. He talks to us and brings us snacks. He came up to me today and out of the blue, said to me really trying to impress on me the power and impact I have on people’s lives. Especially those who I work with.. He’s a very nice man. During this time of questioning of where I am going to go (either Oklahome or stay here in Maryland)
it helped me be aware of the (when I feel at a loss of what direction to go) the importance of being chosen and obtaining recognition, the importance of community and the importance of appreciating my membership to the community as well as of it all. I have some agency but I am also very reliant on my community. I’m not saying ‘all’ that I want to sasy, but in the face of making a decision this was really an impactful message from the greater good to come to me from this man today.
There’s something delicate I want to tell you. I realize we all or each have the ability to see things through our own scope. I can see somethings and not other things. I see that in others too.. Love and compassion make me want to hug and be patient with each person for the things we can share. I know what it is to be alone...As I was working tonight, I got as much done as I could and then tired as I was, I started thinking on the ride home. I was reacting to things that people close to me had said and done in texts. The epiphany was, I hope I can say this, but we each have a pathology to a certain extent. We’re human beings. Rather than feeling like I have to exist in some perfect meaning I am embracing my individual existence and pathology along with the others in my life. I feel I have insight better and more love for this place here and more love to give. I have more insight for being loved as well. Does this make sense?
I know we communicate through Christ’s love but I am really appreciating my community -
Christ’s love mitigates the fragility and frailties
Apologies I can’t say it so well and perhaps it is better left as such
There's a depth
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yes, markus questionarius, it makes profound sense to this certified nut-job.
i'm a-hoping and a-praying you'll develop it further.
just hoping. . .
Thanks Arfie!!
Ok, in terms of developing it further…I know we communicate through Christ’s love, past all that personal opining and chaos and such…but I am really appreciating It all. The good the bad the ugly. Christ’s love mitigates the fragility and frailties Apologies I can’t say it so well and perhaps it is better left as such There’s a dimension and depth. Some people you can communicate with and feel at ease, others you cannot. Just trying to sit with that and feel a sense of peace about who I am, what I have chosen to do with my life and also in the same spirit, have been chosen to do.
methinks i would rather hear an apology from the powers that be for making it so difficult to develop these esoterics, but i ain't a-holding my breath while i wait for THAT apology.
accepting life on life's own terms and working with what's available. . .
let it be okay if it doesn't come out quite right on the first try. i believe that is why god invented rewrites. just believing. . . proof irrelevant.
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