Moving on

I want to move on with my life.  But I am unable to.  I know many of my friends are tired of hearing me whining and complaining about my life.  But the truth is my life IS shit.  Ever since my husband died in January, my life has been so shitty.  He died and left me in a huge mess, in a big hell of a mess.  He did not take care of his affairs.  He left inadequate life insurance. He did not leave a will. He did not change beneficiaries. Ever since he died his ex wife has been out on a vendetta to hurt me as much as possible. She has recruited all four of his daughters in the process.   His own parents have been sucked in to the vortex of his ex's maliciousness and have added to my suffering.  Even his youngest sister is also supportive of this agenda.  I am being pursued, legally and viciously. She is trying to take everything I have away from me.  This is NOT about her doing what she thinks is best for her daughters. This is about her trying to HURT me as much as possible.  I am not sure why she is so angry with me.  It is not my fault that he was so irresponsible.  She has had me removed as admin of my own husband's estate. She is costing the estate tens of thousands of dollars in legal fees, court fees, admin fees and real estate agent fees. All of which, I would NOT have cost the estate. But now, she is going to find another way to hurt me. Now she is planning to file an ADDITIONAL suit against me - this one would be against me PERSONALLY, to make ME pay for damages to the estate and all the legal fees, etc.  All of which was HER fault.  But she will do it, knowing full well that the court could very easily agree with her or, at the very least make me pay HALF of all of that.  I wish she would DROP DEAD. No, I wish she would suffer some terrible disease that leaves her mind intact but her body rendered completely useless. So that way she can KNOW her suffering and be UNABLE to do anything about it. To be HELPLESS.  And I hope her own daughters turn on her and take everything away from her. BITCH. And I CANNOT move on.  The court has frozen all my assets, thanks to the BITCH.  I have no place to go.  I have no money, no income.