idk

everythings been a daze. i sit around waiting for the time to pass by.i don't even know what im waiting for.waiting for december 12th to pass maybe... i dont do anything and im exhausted.and if i have a good day, then the next day i crash. i feel worse than ever before.when i think about this friday, which is the 12th (joshs due date), my chest gets so tight. it feels like i cant breathe well, and i can sit here dazed and have it feel like a few minutes went by when really it will be an hour.