UGH! <~ That sums up my week lol.I haven't really been doing much of anything lately...so I've been pretty much on bedrest non-stop for a week straight. So why is my bleeding the worst it's been all month? Yesterday night I woke up from a looong nap and realized I was bleeding through the pad I had on, my underware, and my sweat pants (TMI..sorry). So, new pad...layed down..went to sleep, woke up about 4 hours later and the bleeding went down. I decided not to go to the hospital because everytime I do, I get the same answer and get stuck with a $300 bill. I'm going to call my doctor on Monday though.  On the 29th is when I get to find out the sex of the baby!!! I'm so excited, I don't want to wait that long lol.  I'm 18 weeks now, almost half way haha.It's really funny (well to me at least haha), I'm OBSESSED with root beer. I hated pop before I was pregnant, now I cannot get enough root beer. I try not to drink so much because I know it's not that great health wise for the baby...but I love it.  Lately, I've been trying SO SO hard to be happy. And if I get a negative/depressing thought, I'll do something else to occupy that thought and just push it away. But I guess you can only do that for awhile because the other night I just bursted into tears. After about a good 15 minutes of crying I stopped myself and made myself just push it away. I know most of the things that are troubling me, I just don't want to think about them.   ALSO, Brad (baby's father) messaged me the other day asking how far along I was and how I was doing, like nothing ever happened. It's the first time I talked to him in awhile. And basically was a waste of my time. He asked me if we could talk about everything instead of going to court. I just told him we do need to talk but I can't be the only one putting effort into this. But, I know I'm taking him to court no matter what, it just has to be done. Then, I told him about the theatened miscarriages and how I'm bleeding still blah blah blah....and he has the nerve to tell me he's horny and wants to have sex with me. Of course I told him no, and he said, and I quote: "when u want my rock hard baby maker in you let me know and we don't have to worry bout getting preggers" I honestly did not know what to say to that. But I was one pissed off girl lol. Ok this is getting long so I'm ending this here.