eh

I just woke up, it's 3:30am, and I can't fall back asleep for anything.Since the last time I wrote, I'm still spotting, but I guess that's normal.Last night, I swear I felt the baby move. The feeling was like butterflies in my lower abdomin. It wasn't my stomach, so I think it was the lil one doing summersaults in there lol. I'm very thankful that everything is going okay with my baby. Unfortunately, I can't help but feel a bit depressed and lonely. Not lonley for a romantic relationship, because I'm not (even though that would be nice to have lol). Lonley for a friend. Josh is my best friend (and my only friend pretty much) and we hang out a lot, but I don't have a girl friend. Ya know, someone to go shopping with, talk to the way girls can talk to each other, lean on each other for support. I really miss that a lot. I'm starting to miss a lot of things..a lot of things I took for granted. I just don't know anymore.