I have been ignoring this site for quite some time...I'm not sure why.  So I decided that I would give a quick update on things so I won't put it off anymore.  About 2 months ago I moved in with my mom, which has been the best decision that I could have made.  She has been really good to me and understanding.  Going back to my dad's is really hard for me to do, even just visiting.  I was there last weekend and was supposed to stay the night and go out to dinner with him, my step mom, and brother...but that night I just couldn't stay there and I went out with my two friends and didn't come back until the morning and then it caused a fight and I ended up leaving to go home. It's just not the same anymore.   I realized a lot of things about myself that I didn't realize.  That's a whole other story though.    Three months ago I also asked my doctor about raising my dose of my Paxil.  It's not much.  I went from taking 20mg to 30mg.  The reason why I asked, is because I am doing better, but I'm terrified of getting worse again.   I don't want to go back to how I was.  Also, I hope that everyone is doing good and taking care of themselves!