It really sucks when you have your downfall. Things really are going good for me, but my mind does wander to other things and I just can't help thinking so much. So when I start thinking, that leads to me being more depressed.I lied to my best friend thinking it was better for her in the end, but I realized that it just made things worse and I won't ever make that mistake again. She's my best friend and I've never had someone in my life like her, I love her with all my heart!But the downfall...things got to me, and late last night it was just unbarable. I tried to think about other things, I tried keeping myself busy. I just knew that it wasn't going to let up until I cut. It made me feel so much better. But now I have to hide it from my dad because I don't want to be kicked out. I just wish he would understand. But in reality, that's not going to happen because that's just how he is.I've been so tired.