I'm so tired. All of this stress is too much for me to handle. I'm out by my moms and she's on the 5th floor of this high rise and I'm freaking out because I feel stuck. I can't sleep...big surprise there. This just all won't go away. There has to be something better for me to do because all I can do is cry and try not to self injure, which I haven't in over a week. The urge is still there but I try stopping myself. I let people down because of everything. I'm supposed to stay here until Sunday but I want to leave tomorrow. I can't though, I don't want to let her down because she was so excited. I just feel like I'm going to lose my mind. My dad's kicking me out in a week if I don't find a job...he doesn't understand how HARD that is for me. I'm glad that I have this now. Thank you Jessica for showing me this site.
I'm going to lay down...