Hello everyone,
I haven't been on here in a long time, but judging by the way things are going, I need to be. I've been feeling down all day. It started with a financial bombshell. I live on disability and without warning they cut it in half. If I'd had some notice it wouldn't have been as bad. So now I'm making payday advances to pay the rent the electricity probably wont get paid. i dont know if i can pay the phone or not. Im going to have to try to find a job, but I'm not very employable. I have skills and I'm smart, but I'm still very obese (even after losing over 100 lbs) and I'm missing a front tooth. Unfortunately, employers judge as much on looks as they do skills, maybe even more. I once got passed up for a social services job that I had 3 years experience in, for someone whose previous job was working at costco. Oh yea, besides cutting my check in half, they are saying I owe them like $30K. So I'm supposed to live off $750 and pay back 30K. What do they expect of me? I'm getting close to 50 years old and I don't have a thing to show for it, except an eating addiction a disrespectful, ungrateful 18 year old and a ton of self loathing. I'm not usually like this. I'll get over it and I'll work things out. Today is just my self pity day. I'll take a hot b ath, go to bed and things will look better tomorrow. I've been through tougher things before and I'll get through this. I have God on my side. He's brought me through this far. I just needed to vent. Today has been my cry day. Tomorrow will be my get to work fixing the problem day. Thanks for letting me let it out on this forum.
I haven't been on here in a long time, but judging by the way things are going, I need to be. I've been feeling down all day. It started with a financial bombshell. I live on disability and without warning they cut it in half. If I'd had some notice it wouldn't have been as bad. So now I'm making payday advances to pay the rent the electricity probably wont get paid. i dont know if i can pay the phone or not. Im going to have to try to find a job, but I'm not very employable. I have skills and I'm smart, but I'm still very obese (even after losing over 100 lbs) and I'm missing a front tooth. Unfortunately, employers judge as much on looks as they do skills, maybe even more. I once got passed up for a social services job that I had 3 years experience in, for someone whose previous job was working at costco. Oh yea, besides cutting my check in half, they are saying I owe them like $30K. So I'm supposed to live off $750 and pay back 30K. What do they expect of me? I'm getting close to 50 years old and I don't have a thing to show for it, except an eating addiction a disrespectful, ungrateful 18 year old and a ton of self loathing. I'm not usually like this. I'll get over it and I'll work things out. Today is just my self pity day. I'll take a hot b ath, go to bed and things will look better tomorrow. I've been through tougher things before and I'll get through this. I have God on my side. He's brought me through this far. I just needed to vent. Today has been my cry day. Tomorrow will be my get to work fixing the problem day. Thanks for letting me let it out on this forum.
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