I went to the cardiologist today. I was expecting to find out my fate, but the doc said he doesn't really know. I have to go next week and have an angiogram done. I'm a little freaked out by that because they run a wire up your vein, to your heart, and it just sounds painful and scarey. The doc said it's not that bad, but I'm not convinced just yet. Anyway, I have to have someone go with me and drive me back home and stay with me over night, just in case something goes wrong. The doc said that he'll be able to tell more about my heart and if I will be able to have the gastric bypass, or if there is something they can do to help my heart get better. I guess it's all good. Whatever he finds out, at least I'll know what's really going on. Today, they did an echo with the contrasting dye. I'm freakish around needles, but it wasn't that bad. Tomorrow, they're going to take more blood. Ahhggg. Will the poking and prodding never end?I just started thinking that them canceling my bypass surgery was a good thing, because now they're going to do the angiogram and we should find out what is actually wrong with my heart. All this time I thought what they were telling me from the echo's was good info and now the doc is telling me that the quality of the echo is very poor (because it has to go through so much fat) and he can't really tell what's what. So now maybe I can find out what the real truth is.I'm just going to leave it in God's hands. I trust Him to work things out for me. (I just wish sometimes, He'd let me in on the plan. lol). I think I'm still doing well on the fast 5 plan. I am sticking to my 19 hour daily fasts, and I'm starting to not pig out as much when the fast is over, and I've stopped trying to stuff something in my mouth just before the eating window closes. I've also noticed that it's easier to avoid awkward eating situations. It takes a lot of pressure off. I don't have to wonder if something fits into my calorie plan or if it will be ok to have dessert, etc. If it's during my fasting time, I'm not eating it. I don't get anxious if I want a particular food. I can have it later during the time I'm allowed to eat. I had a lot of sweets and stuff during Christmas and now I don't really crave them. I don't really crave fried foods either. In the beginning I would eat just prior to starting the fast even if I wasn't hungry because my thoughts were "oh my gosh, I won't be able to eat for another 19 hours", but now I'm learning that 19 hours isn't forever. It's not like I can't eat for a month or a week or something. I am starting to shift back towards wanting to eat healthy foods, especially heart healthy foods. I think this is something I can really stick with for life The cardiologist said that this eating plan made since.(but then again, he's the one that told me I only had a year to live in 2005, so who knows?) Of course, if I have the gastric bypass, I will have to get used to a different way of eating altogether.