I cant seem to follow through with anything these days. I haven't gone to Curves, I've only rode the stationary bike once and I still haven't got my house cleaned, havent bought stamps or sent out christmas cards, haven't got the dogs nails trimmed, I haven't done anything I planned. I don't know what's going on with me. Part of it could be the weather. I don't want to get up early. I sleep until 8 or 9 am. Once I slept until 11:30. I used to be up by 7-7:30 every morning, then clean the house before going over to my moms to take care of her. Today I watched my grandbabies, so I kind of had an excuse-they keep me busy! I wish I could figure out why I cant seem to follow thru with anything. I could spend a whole day just doing nothing. Id gotten so used to my days being filled with studying and school work, now that the term is over I just don't want to do anything else. I keep going to the class website wanting to see if there is anything new, but of course there's not. I am anxious for class to start again. I have an appointment to go to the cardiologist on the 29th. Hopefully there will be good news about my heart or at least there will be something I can do to make it better so I can have the surgery. I don't feel depressed, but I wonder if I am. I have suffered a loss of my dream of having the surgery and losing weight. I have not given in, I am still losing weight (extremely slowly), but I get sad when I think about when I lose weight I'm gonna....  Then I remember that I'm not having the surgery and the probablility that I will lose enough weight to matter and keep it off is very slim(ironically).