Well, today was surgery day. They had the IVs in me and the anestheologist was just about to put me under when the doctor called it off. There were some issues with my heart and the doc felt it was too risky to proceed. I was a little bit relieved but bummed too. I kind of feel like my dream of all the things I wanted to be able to do have just evaporated into thin air. I'm really trying to stay positive and I'm going to continue losing weight. I just have to not think about how much I have to lose so I don't get depressed and go back to bingeing. Sometimes it feels like when you have a dream in the palm of your hand then it gets snatched away. Maybe it can still be done. I'll have to meet with the cardiologist and go from there.