My brother is coming home from the hospital today and my other brother is leaving. I am already exhausted and today is when my real work begins. I will be care taking my mother and my brother. I barely take care of my own needs, so this is going to be quite a challenge. I went completely off my eating and exercise plan. I can get back on the eating plan. I'll start today, but I don't know about the exercise plan which is very important. I don't have a treadmill there, and my laptop doesnt get a good enough signal to run my chair exercise videos. I refuse to exercise in front of anyone, and I don't have any privacy there. I sleep in the living room and I am way too tired by the time they go to bed. They stay up until late, dozing off and on in the chair. If anyone has any ideas, I'd like to hear them. I've gained some weight I know, but not sure what the damage is yet. don't want to weigh. I will try to get back on this site and journal as much as I can bc I think that's a big part of my recovery. This is that part of the roller coaster ride of life where you just hold on as tight as you can and ride it out.  If you're reading this please leave a short comment. i could really use the encouragement today. Thank you all.