Well what can I say about today? It started out well. had a good breakfast. had a small snack at lunch time but waited to long to have a meal and got really hungry. Sooo... I had ordered homemade tamales about a month ago. i should have told the lady I didn't want them anymore, but she's a friend of mine (blah..blah...excuse...excuse..) Long story short I ended up eating 4 homemade tamales then felt gassy so I had to drink a soda to keep the gas pains away tonight. now I fell bloated and feel like I weigh closer to a million pounds. I don't really feel guilty for overeating. Tamales are a once a year thing and getting them when I was already really hungry was a recipe for failure. I just physically feel bad and tomorrow is weigh day and I'm afraid I didn't lose much or maybe nothing at all or worse yet gained. I might be devastated if I gained. I need to prepare myself mentally and most of all..not give up! I did 109 steps on the treadmill this morning. I tried to make 120 but just couldn't get there. I'm going to get on the treadmill tonight though not sure how much I can do with all this extra food in my stomach. The important is that I get onit and do something. Something is more than I was doing prior to june 3.