Today has not been a good day. I got up late. breakfast was good cereal and banana and didnt finish it. Went to mcdonalds for lunch and for some reason I thought that 2 mcchickens were a reasonable lunch. It wasn't until I had scarfed down both that it occurred to me I should have bought only 1. My mind still thinks in large quantities of food. I didn't have any fries or soda so at least I have to give myself credit for that. I did 120 steps on the treadmill this morning but barely made it. I couldnt do anymore later because I was watching my grandbabies and they didnt give me a moment to breathe. I had a really empty feeling today. reckognizing that I  have to let my son go and let him hit rock bottom. dinner didnt go much better. just an icky day.