I'm really having a bad day today. I had a big fight with my son. My heart is just being ripped out by this kid. I don't know what to do. I don't even think I know him any more. He thinks I make him out to be a monster, but I don't think I do. I tell him I know he is bright and has tons of potential and I can't stand to see him throw it away. now this stupid computer is not letting me journal right. I had written a whole page and it just erased it so I had to start over. I am just so tired of crying and worrying over this kid. I was doing good at letting go until he moved back in. This is the deepest kind of pain. gut wrenching, down to your soul pain. I promised myself I wasn't going to cry over this kid any more, but here I am.The up side is that I have been doing very good with my eating and exercising. I did 100 steps on the treadmil today and I might do some more now to get the grief out. I ate a big breakfast but noo lunch because of my schedule. Its too close to dinner now. Gotta go pick up my grand babies. Thank you all for your support.