another day

Today was an ok day. I had alot going on and I still did't over eat. I didn't eat breakfast until noon. I know that's not good, but i just didn't get hungry and I was busy doing stuff. I picked up my son from college and the drama started right away. He is an addict and cannot understand why I won't trust him when he has continually lied to me and has stolen money to support his habit. It makes me angry that my money goes to purchase drugs. He is still a minor so I am responsible for him, but he was incarcerated for three years and then he went to live in the dorms. So he has a hard time not having the freedom he has had at the dorms. Anyway, the point is that this situation is a major stressor for me and so far I seem to be handling it well, at least where my eating and exercise is concerned. I did not overeat. I went shopping and I did include some junk food for treats now and then, and I did have some, but I did not go overboard. Normally this stressor would cause me to relapse into binge eating and just throwing out the progress I made.  I weighed myself and I was up almost a pound but I contribute that to the fact that I usually weigh in the morning and now I weighed at night. Besides the was yesterday that I weighed last and I know weight can fluctuate a couple of pounds for now apparent reason. Overall, I'm proud of myself for not binging in the face of one of my biggest stressors. Of course the ball game is not over yet. He may be here all summer with me, so there will be many more stressful days ahead. I need to stay ready. Today I actually walked on the treadmill instead of going to the fridge when I felt stressed. That's a big deal for me because it means I am finding other ways to deal with stress. I kinda feel like chains are breaking off of me right now. I really do feel a little freer from the hold of food. Still not sure how to handle my boy, but I'm going to take care of myself anyway.P.s. Does anyone know how to get rid of this annoying line in the middle of my screen. It says 'Share Page' and it only happens on this site. It is very annoying

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Great job on all your hard work. It seems like you are doing really well recognizing your stressers and finding new ways of coping. Keep up the good work!

btw the line at the bottom of the screen is a new feature of DS that allows you to check which friends are online and chat.
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I can just imagine how difficult and emotional it is to deal with your son. You are showing great strength to control your eating and turning to exercise to deal with the stress. Try to keep making those good choices! More power to you!!

I go Tuesday for my surgery. Please keep me in your thoughts. I ned all the support I can get!

Hugs,
Becky
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I have dealt with similar issues with my son and daughter-in-law. Yes, I agree, it is very stressful. I find it affects me most in not being able to sleep. By the way, not eating until noon is not a good idea. My nutritionist advised me to eat within 1/2 hr of waking up to get my metabolism going. I think if you try this your scale will show a difference. Good luck with your son.

Teri
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I liked what you said about chains falling away, helpful imagery for me. You are doing really well, and sharing your progress here is inspirational. As for your son this summer, I can relate to this: 2 years ago, my oldest son, then a junior in high school, had become so unhappy in our home due to conflict with my other son (long story), that he decided to live with his grandma. I love him, wasn\'t sure what was \'right\', but his dad and I transferred legal guardianship to her so that the school there would take him with no problems. He graduated high school last week, and is enlisted in the navy...leaves for basic training in December. I asked him to spend the time beforehand with us, and he agreed. He\'s moving in tomorrow, and now the reality of how bad it could get due to all the years of strife/animosity between the boys is looming over me like a dark cloud. I\'m really stressing over it. Maybe we could work together to ease the pressure, just use the DS resource to vent and support each other. It\'s tough loving your kids so much, yet having so much worry, sadness, stress, and all the second guessing and self-doubt over why things are the way they are. But it helps to realize we\'re not alone with these feelings. Take care.