Jeez, I just saw that it was7 months ago that I've written anything.  Things are going as expected i guess, some good days here and there, but mostly just lost days, I just don't seem to be able to get back to what was a normal life.  I don't care about much of anything anymore, just go along with what everyone else wants to do, and not with much enthusiasm.  I don't think there's a day that goes by, without thinking of PJ, or talking to him, it's almost like an obsession, but people think I'm ok!  And I'm thinking to myself, can't you people see I'm not right, so I guess I'm doing a good job at hiding what's inside me.  My dr. keeps giving me more pills for things he finds wrong, and I just keep taking them, I don't know how I got all this stuff wrong with me, I was fine before PJ took his life, now I'm falling apart, go figure!!  Oh well, guess the dr. knows best.  So that's about what's happening in my life, not much, which is fine by me.  Quiet, uneventful, that's how I like it.