Today i killed a big bug unintentionally. I was rushing to the pharmacy, and squashed it with my foot. I am sorry about it.Then I made a stupid joke with my friend on the phone over the war in Israel.We laughed. I feel worse.Not a big deal I know. I should have more serious things to think about. It is probably because I don't do  good deeds anymore, or that I don't do anything significant lately, that I dwell on little things, on silly stuff that I do or say. Or worse, it may be that I am scared and a little coward, and i am afraid to do anything wrong cause Karma will come after me. Selfish.Well these are my shallow thoughts. I probably shouldn't post this. I will erase it later. I do it because I am upset abt the bug. And the joke. I try not to be hypocritical. I have biiigger sins than that.