Felt better today. Didn't do much but the depression was gone. Maybe this has to do with the fact that he left out of town too. He'll be back on Sunday and I am scared of how I will react seeing his name in the messanger list again. This mess thing has become a real problem. I can't figure it out yet.
So the depression's gone but the fear&anxiety are back(my old friends). I am thinking to join a support group on this also, but I am scared to talk about it. I feel down because of this but I'll try a new remedy: not think abt it. After all, some parts of my mind have always been tricky enemies for me.
As fas as my ex is involved, it becomes more and more obvious he has found someone new, altough he didn't admit it. The misterious trips outside Bucharest, the sudden break up. excuse me for not buying:"it was at the spur of the moment" crap. I am torn between beeing gealous and not giving it time to develop in my mind. Right now I am too tired to decide..Tomorrow is another day