Very bad day yesterday. I did the most stupid thing possible. I called him.
Note to self: never do that again.
He was nice on the phone, nice as in calm tone, easily telling me he wants nothing to do with me, but later that day he was very rude on messenger. I hate the messenger so much! Hate seeing his name in the list. This has become a real issue.
I took the decision last night that I am to keep my dignity and move on. This is pretty hard but whenever I feel like crying or the depression taking over me, I react telling myself to stop. This works!