My Day
My mood is a bit fuzzy. I wish I have a hobby so I can occupied my time wisely. When I am finish cleaning the house everyday, I don't have anything else to do. I can't sew, draw, or paint. I wish I can call someone but they are busy with their lives. Everyday is the same routine. I have nothing to do with my life. Everyday I stay at home doing nothing. I tried to work but failed. I tried to go to school twice but failed. There is nothing for me here on earth. I really don't have a purpose in life. I don't even know who am I anymore. I don't know what I want to do in life. All my friends and family are living their lives. I'm just here. I don't know what the purpose for me in life.
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Oh love. I hate that you are feeling so down about yourself. I hope one day you find something that can fill your time . I know there is something out there, i guess you just havent found it. I know I was like that too hun . I partied, and when I couldnt party anymore i didnt kno WHAT to do . I was useless at everything...then i became a mom ! So never give up hun , you will find something
I\'m so sorry that you\'re feeling so down on yourself hun. I understand just how you feel though. I used to have a job, so I felt like I was beneficial to the family. I used to clean my house regularly, which I can no longer do due to chronic pain. I have felt just like you do for a long, long time. Since there is nothing going on in your life other than cleaning, and you see everyone else just going on with their lives without you.. you become so down on yourself and begin to feel like you serve no purpose. I wish that I could offer you some magical cure for this, but all I can do is offer a suggestion. During your down times.. attempt to find a hobby that will take up your spare time. For me.. I enjoy reading & I love to do art. Drawing.. using pastels.. etc... Will this be a cure to your depression? Who knows, but at least you would have something to do during the day that you enjoy that would be fulfilling to YOU. If you ever want to talk.. feel free to message me, okay?!
Nikki
One thing I failed to mention.. you don\'t necessarily have to be GOOD at something for it to be your hobby ;) Like my art for instance.. it won\'t be hanging in any galleries any time soon, but it\'s still fun to do ;)