everyone has struggles and no one want's to hear my bullshit.  I know that what any given individual faces is really really hard for them, even if it's not hard for the next guy. I get that..  I just don't see I can fix myself, and that's all that's matters because my shit doesn't matter to anyone else, they have their own shit.j I'm
it's liek I have some problem, some peo;pl have medical issues, some have emotion condidtons and for me it's just that I don't work. I just can't function so I make everyone miserable around me and that's why it seems like there's no point.
 
I wanted to be a part of something. but if you can't push yourself. if you can't take the first step, then i'ts like just a mistake. my siblings are all worth it and done good things and i'm so far removed it's like I'm not even a part of that.  all my life it was family family family but I can'teven get that right.  just feeling sorry for myself is a screw up. i't slike I need to do something about that, but I can't seem to fix it so that's why it seems like the right thing ot end it