today after a day's worth of liquids such as diet coke and coffee...missy weighs in at 113.5....im 6 ft tall and weigh 113.5 with liquid in my tummy...cant help but wonder what i weigh without anything in me....please DONT anyone tell me that i need to gain weight...blah blah blah...im not stupid, im not dense....im ill....and right now i wanna be left alone with my ED...i am having a love affair with it at the moment...right now i love the flatness of my stomach and how powerful that makes me feel....tomorrow i may feel differently...but i am living in the moment...and this is where i am at this very moment kids wouldnt listen for anything at my work today...i lost my voice cuz i was scolding so much....grrr...so frustrating...lucky for me though, my boss called me later on after i got home and said that i have tmorrow off since alot of the kids parents were calling the kids in sick....so all i have tmorrow during the day is my last final exam for this semester...then im going to see the movie Fred Claus with my grandparentstoday after work, my sister took my to tim hortons for a coffee...and while we were on our way there, she said "missy i wanna apoligize for what i said last night" and i was like "what about saying that i only have 10 yrs to live?" and she was like "no for saying that YOU fucked up ur life....i was wrong...it's not u fucking it up....it's the disorder"....this apology meant alot to me...to have someone who doesn't have an ED be able to separate the person and the disorder is really something....b4 my ED, i was one of those people who thought that people with EDs chose to be the way they were and that they could just eat and they would be fine....guess karma really is a bitch huh?