well i am facing the ever shrinking tummy effect...lol i have dubbed it with its own name...in this condition, one's tummy shrinks and shrinks and is able to hold less and less food without physical comfort...and this hinders one's recovery in several ways 1) it causes pain when one tries to go above and beyond their normal portions perhaps taking a stab at recovery...and come on, who wants to eat extra food when it not only causes them mental pain but then starts to caues them physical pain? 2) it causes one to have to consume scary foods in order to recovery (these foods for people are the ones that are high in calories for a small serving) because their stomachs cannot physically hold the amount of nutritious healthy (often lower calorie) foods that someone with an ED might be more comfortable consuming...........due to these reasons, this side effect of EDs just keeps adding into the viscious cycle that keeps me in my disorderomg i was so mad last night....i came home from college and my parents were playing cards, and my sister was just talking...then she got up and decided to make some food for her and her bf to eat (if u interested, they split a can of veg beef soup (so thats 125 cals apiece) and she made some grilled cheese with turkey, honey dijon mustard, ham, and tomato on 2 slices of 90 cal a piece bread (so the sandwiches were about 400 cals apiece)) but any who...i was sitting at the breakfast counter minding my own business doing the crossword puzzle in the paper when my dad says "omg are u going bald?" OMG O NO HE DIDNT....i am not going bald...sure, last yr when i was uber ill, i lost alot of hair.....but then i went to treatment and it all grew back...and it has all stayed in my head.... right now my hair is perfectly fine....but he just loves to try and make it a point to make me feel bad about myself even when what he is pointing out isnt there...almost as if like since last yr when i was sick, my hair was falling out then he thinks that he should just tell me that it's doing it again so that maybe he'll freak me out and then ill stop....he also likes to tell me that my skin is a grayish green sickly color because im so pale blah blah blah...i am not green....geez....i just cannot fucking win with him....i don't wanna play this game anymore....can we play something else¿?¿?
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I\'m having the same horrible effects on my stomach- it IS a vicious cycle, and I fucking hate it. It\'s why Nancy says she wants me to get a TPN or NG tube. Holy fucking hell.
You are exactly like me: making food for others, checking the calories, making sure it\'s much more than you would eat, etc. As for your dad, I still think his comments are more out of fear, and hence he says inconsiderate comments out of paranoia. Also, we have a distorted view of ourselves- maybe you DO have greyish skin?
my skin has been greyish when i was into the ED.
As for the stomach shrinking, yeah, it sucks but the physical and mental pain is small compared to the life that is being starved away :(
i always look pale people are always asking if im ill too,just ignore your dad he seems to take every chance there is to upset you and he should be more caring towards you.
About the food thing,im the same, yesterday i tried to eat a jacket potatoe with tuna and keep it down and i felt really ill and i involuntary brought it back up...hope your dad lays off u a bit x
If it where me I couldn\'t handle that situation...I think you dad is being so selfish and just plain mean to you!! Have you told him how you feel? I hope you have a good day
sorry you are struggling so much. i have the shrinking stomach too and now that i have been sick for 3 weeks and unable to eat it is real hard to get back on track. i am probably down to 300-400 cal. a day. my therapist said i looked peeked(whatever that means). i did look in the mirror and thought i looked pale but gosh i have been sick. all i can say is do your best to get healthy even if that means baby steps. you can do it. as for your dad, he needs to keep his comments to himself. even if he thinks they are true they are just upseting. i know the other night i was eating a gramcracker and my cousin asked me if i was binging. that upset me so i went and purged even though i only ate one. people need to just keep their mouths shut. just do what you feel you need to do and i am behind you all the way.
yeah Im having to eat \"normal\" and I swear after eating a burger last night I seriously couldnt sleep I felt so full and I have to fucking eat a noral meal again today. This sucks major ass.
Hey love, I\'m sorry your Dad is giving you such a rough time. Just know he loves you, and he\'s probably trying everything and anything to scare you the way he is scared for you. His heart is in the right place, he wants his healthy daughter back...it\'s just not coming out that way. In terms of the greenish complexion, it\'s winter time & we\'re not healthy right now - it\'s going to happen (but I agree with the others, it\'s more of a greyish/pale complexion than green). I tend to put on foundation make-up so that others don\'t see, but that\'s just me and my mixed up self (I don\'t wear make-up when I see my treatment providers though, I don\'t want to hide stuff from them...that won\'t help me at all). I definetly hear you on the \"shrinking tummy effect\" (cute name, I\'m going to adopt it - but I will ABSOLUTELY give you credit for it, while still keeping your info. confidential of course). I have found making my own soups are the easiest way for me to get my nutrients in, even though I can\'t eat all that much. I don\'t eat meat, but I love to make Miso Soup (tofu, spinach, scallions, miso). It\'s very easy to make, and very healthy for you. You can make it with a chicken broth base, which will provide you with some more protein. Also, you could make some lentil soup (tons of vegetables, lentils are great sources of protein, you can add some potatoes if you feel comfortable, etc.) I make my lentil soup with a vegetable stock, but again, you could make it with a beef/chicken stock. These soups are quite easy to make (I love to cook) and they\'ll make your house smell delicious. Also, you can make a big batch at a time, and just leave the soup pot out in the garage instead of the fridge (it\'s cold enough), or you can freeze a portion (it\'ll stay forever) and defrost what you want each time. I can go on forever (I can also provide you with the calorie breakdown if you\'d like), let me know if you want any of these. Now that my bout of presenations and papers are done for this week, I\'ll give you a call tonight or tomorrow. Hang in there love - chin up :o)
Oh man I\'m sorry your dad is being a total jerk...I mean that was really unnecessary and really dumb of him to say to you;I would have cried and made him feel bad.I fhtey don\'t want to play nice and you don\'t want to put up with it just start balling and hopefully he will have a BIG guilt feeling....:-)
ohh i know just what yu mean about the skrinking tummy.
i ad the sameeee thing when i would starve myself. :p
but i\'m srry about yuur dad.i really think he can be a major jerk sometimes but at times like these he\'s trying to \'help\'...but he\'s just being a jerk....he doesnt get itt... :[