work was good today....was in the preschool room for most of my shift...only got to go to the toddler room so that mrs karon could take her lunch break....but i got that room and the kids all to myself for 30 min =P...everything went well...the kids listen to me(as much as a kid will listen anyways)....those lil pip squeaks!...preschool room seems like a breeze after being in the toddler room as much as i am...the preschoolers actually clean up their toys the 1st time they are asked, and they potty themselves....hallujuah! haha back to my toddlers tmorrow i go! (my boss was out sick today...it was her turn to get the stomach thing that's been goin around our work...and wow, work was so much less stressful for me since i didn't have to worry about her critiquing me....)
on the issue of my parents, im gonna try to keep my spirit alive by telling myself that the day i move out, things between us will get better...i think we all need a break from one another...they need a break from my ED big time...i wish i could give them this break ASAP...but i am a poor college student with a part time job...*sigh*
the weather is SHITTY SHITTY SHITTY! snow all around...and heavy high winds...right after work, my sister wanted me to go out shopping with her...so i did....(i missed my nap b4 school due to this..=( ) and omg...i almost got blown clear over a few times by the wind...im not kidding either...i think that a low weight and high winds is not a good match...and throwing coldness into that mix...makes missy a miserable fuck
im wearing these ridiculous fuzzy boots which im posting a pic of on here...i love em =) 
.......omg i feel like such a loser about something though...i can just get lost for hours reading about calorie contents posted online for different restaurants...places ill prolly never go to, and foods ill prolly never dream of eating...but i just absorb the information...and im able to store it in my memory...god y cant i do this with my college stuff? god what an embarassment i am.....i know how many calories there are in a big mac, but i cant tell u about the elasticity of the supply and demand curve....
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omg, I know what you mean about the nutrition facts... instead of a walking dictionary, I\'m a walking CalorieKing nutrition facts guide. haha It really makes me cringe though! My boyfriend told me about how he ate a \"lumberjack slam\" breakfast at Denny\'s the other day and I\'m like \"OMG DO YOU HAVE ANY CLUE HOW MANY CALORIES ARE IN THAT?!?!?\" He wasn\'t phased though. Some people really need to be reading those websites more than us.
Ha, I think everyone with the internet and an eating disorder does that, love. We\'re obsessed with food, and it\'s our drug addiction. I love your boots- very cute. And god, I hate cold weather too. I froze this morning. :(
Oh, and yes, things will get better between your parents and you once you distance yourself from them. I hope you come in March. :)
I do the same thing. I know the calories in everything. Whenever my sister eats at Panera she always says she feels good about it because she thinks she is eating healthy. And I just think to myself \"if only she knew that dressing had 14 grams of fat and 200 calories.\" But of course I don\'t tell her this because as awful as it sounds, it brings me joy when I know she is eating something loaded with fat.
I laughed when I read you almost got blown away. This almost happened to me once, when I was 12. I just started to get comsumed in my ED. I was living in Florida and we were supposed to get Huricane Andrew. The hurricane never came but the winds did. I was under a tree when a huge gust of wind came. I litturally lifted me off the ground. My sister and I still laugh about to this day. But,yeah, the cold weather sucks.
ha.i do those kinda things too....i just find ramdom food and read all the caloirs on it...and i can never keep what i learned in math 5 minutes ago in my head....its just the way the brain works... :ppp
I do the exact same thing as well. I spend hours looking at restaurant menus, recipes, calorie databases, etc, and then I feel like such a sicko and pathetic. But I think because we are in starvation mode, we can\'t help but be obsessed with food. I think that if we get healthy and eat enough regularly, then our obsession will fade. At least we all do it and aren\'t alone :)
Is this photo of your fuzzy boots taken in the car as well? I\'m amazed at how you must drive. I hear you about knowing all the cal\'s. I\'ve also got this fixation with knowing the exact weight of food items. FOOD=MATHS :)
hi my name is kicky,im also anorexic and working despratly to avoid being admitted to hospital.see im currently a out patient and they want me to gain a pound a week and increase to 1600 calories a week,im new to all of this so bare with me.would love to chat to you.keep fighting you will win the fight,i know how dam hard the battle is as im in the a simaler situation my self.and if i lose even a pound they are going to admit me im terrified.please keep fighting we can support each other if you would like to of course thoughts and hugs to you.
It\'s amazing how we can focus on one thing, isn\'t it? Counting calories is something I stopped doing years ago, but now I\'m getting back into it and it gives one a sense of control. Regarding the studies; well, I guess we all learn in different ways. You\'ll make it! You\'re a clever cookie! If you don\'t mind me saying so.